Babysitting

I've got a question from a friend last week. "My boss is visiting New York with his wife and wondering if you'd like to take care of their children for one night?"

I never say no to a friend asks me to take care of their puppies, I thought this would be nice, too. I love kids, the one who can speak, especially a foreign language. I told them I can take care but no diapers or anything like that. (I always get panic when puppies do poopies too.. ehem) they said no need. Ok.

I went to their hotel and met with the boy (the little one was sleeping already, guess how disappointed I was, I couldn't even see his face). He was 8 years old. I said "hallo, wie geht's?" with my weird accent. I think it was his first shock. Oh yea, he speaks fluently German and English.

We played German games in my phone for almost 2 hours. He thought my German is terrible.. (he came closer to camera and whispered "I don't understand her German". Grr..

When the time showed up 9:20 dad was messaging whatsup. Means the son needs to sleep.  I tried my best to gain some time but he had to go bed for some reason... I found myself sitting and asking myself: what the heck. All the fun, all of the reason I was there for is sleeping. Am I babysitting or what??!

Yea, that was my second babysitting experience in my life. I think kids are great when they are talking. My first experience was taking care of my aunts 1, 5 years old daughter... I remember as today: first minutes I was in love. Holding her and feeling close to this little tiny beautiful body and WANTING ONE. Insanely.. and 3 hours later, just thinking how crazy I have to be to have one.. such a big deal.. 3 hours was enough.. oh well.. but I love them :) Just as much as I love puppies as long as I do not own any of them.

So my second experience was very awesome. He was able to talk.  And he was very smart.  But me. I had no experience talking with living little human creatures.. I found myself commanding him "Sit. Talk." Realizing and thanking he didn't feel offended and adding immediately "bitte schon"...

Thanks a lot to my friend and the dad who trusted me. I had a lovely experience.. I have GREAT videos. I can't stop laughing watching them. So energetic. He did some karate moves and I thought if I can do it, too.. but I guess I'm getting old to try them.. I can't even properly kick!!

The Castle of the Past

There is a woman. She's in a castle. There a lot of guardians and she's hiding from them. But she's not trying to escape, she wants to discover. She wants to discover what this castle is and what these people are doing. She feels they are bad people and doing mean things.

There is a very BIG cage. Very big, she mistakenly put herself in there. And realized she got trapped with tigers. (Here, I LOVE tigers. I even sometimes tell, "aww, that beautiful animal could eat me. It would be okay. They are lovely.") In this part, this woman becomes me. And finding myself so close to death, I got terrified, my animal instincts became alive, I was not an human with a brain anymore. I was an animal who wanted to survive. When two of the hungry tiger was coming to me, I kind of changed this part of the dream, and I got rid of the cage. Wehh... (tricks :))

Next part, climbing, jumping, running, and she went to the most protected part of the castle. Which was the top of a super long book-shelf (like 15 meters). When she was getting closer to the top, the guardians actually can shoot her, but they don't. When she reaches the top, she only finds old newspapers pieces.

She sees a woman's photo, and reads a bit about how terrifying things that woman did, and she looks at the guardians. This woman is herself!! She was shocked. But now all is clear.

She was not happy what she did in the past, but wanted to forget everything about that life.She found a way somehow. All of the guardians knew that. But living like that was not enough, she wanted to fill the emptiness in herself. And after the discovery she figured out all.

In the end, she opens the secrets of the castle to the public, new newspapers published, etc.. She's not happy with her past, but happy with her now..

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Whatever we want to suppress, hide or push back inside of us, comes back more strongly. We should live it. If you want to let  this feeling go, live it. My dream proofs that, doesn't it? :) 

Life of Pi

Which idea, dream, goal makes you excited, cry when you think about?

I have my dreams makes me super excited and I can't even hold my tears sometimes.. Whatever this idea, you should ask yourself why you want it. Find your reasons.. Are they good-real reasons or they are covering some other needs? And visualize it. Imagine it! Meet, know, learn the people who made it before.. So it will not be a dream anymore, you'll feel close to it..

Life of Pi is one of the best movie I ever watched. I watched 3D, and regardless of the visual effects, the story itself was amazing.

The reflection of the sky from the ocean

The magical island and cute animals. I'd like to play with them..

Baby or not, tigers are beautiful.. And I definitely believe animals have soul..

Watching Life of Pi in 3D is not a bad idea..

Stars, fishes, life and love..

Richard Parker the Bengal Tiger...

And he can actually swim :) Isn't he so cute??

2013, Me & Myself

My bike has got stolen. From Columbus Circle. And I had already 2 bicycle tickets, and I was addicted to ride my bike even though it was winter & cold... So I was kinda relieved to lose it..

Also, new year, 2013 is just started great. Powerful. Love it so far..

I'm learning to go deep down of myself. I didn't know there was a lot of information about sub-conscious, controlling it, knowing it, and how it effects our life without knowing it. Let's see..

EDIT: Yes, I knew it!! I forgot all of these personal development books I've read when I was a kid. Brain power, NLP, etc.. I just started seeing all successful people, all millionaires (the happy ones) know this method. Affirmations, visualization, goal setting, etc.. They all tell the secret of their success in different styles, but there is one same main thing. It's the key. And I'm getting closer to it.

This time, it will not be like my old times, reading/learning a lot of valuable information and DO NOTHING! I'm taking the control of myself by the awareness of myself. This year is my year.

Lots love,
Your Favorite Turkish Girl :)